Me = Summer Finn?

I was browsing yesterday, aimless, and I found an article from somebody's blog, here. She reviewed a movie, 500 Days of Summer. I read what she felt about that movie, and I think I also have to write something too. Why? Here it is...

I know that movie. I know it when I watched Golden Globe Awards on TV where Joseph Gordon-Levitt got a nominee. Last time I saw him on Ten Things I Hate About You, long time ago. I was just curious about the movie where he got nominated for. I got a feeling the movie must be great. At the moment I was still in a relationship, at jogja (yes, with him). He likes to download movie free from internet, so I asked him to download me the movie. He did it, but he gave me the copy a day before I left Jogja, or when we broke up. When I was at home, I forgot to watch the movie. No, I forgot that I ever asked him to download the movie. One day he sent me sms, and told that the guy in 500 Days of Summer's movie was exactly like him. And then I watched the movie, and shocked. It same with my relationship with him, well, generally. Except the sex scenes etc hehehe... I'd never been seeing a movie that the story is "so me", yet until I watched 500 Days of Summer.

On objective side, Summer Finn sucks. She dumped Tom Hansen. She is so selfish and cruel. But on subjective side, I understand her feeling and why she broke off her relationship with Tom, because we had same reason why we wanted to ended it all up. If Summer sucks, perhaps me too. I know myself. But if Summer had told Tom at first that she didn't want a serious relationship and also she didn't want a commitment since it woud only hurt people's feeling, not with me. Ever since I had realtionship with him, I always serious. That's the difference between me and Summer. But after I broke up, I trust Summer's principle. My mindset has changed. I don't want to be somebody's girlfriend. I just want to be somebody's wife

I broke his heart, I know. But I couldn't help it. All I can say is like what Summer said when Tom asked why did she go:
"I just woke up one day and I knew that I'd never sure with you. It was meant to be."

Sometimes truth is much more painful. I'm sorry.